Loved and Lost

Crimson red
Of virgin blood
Oozing out of a broken heart
The pain and the sighs
And the tears shed
I want to cherish them all
It was the first time
This special ache
Will rise yet again
As nostalgia
Somewhere in the future
Let me paint the memories till then
Onto a vivid canvass
And hide it
Away from the prying eyes
This mark of innocence lost
Of an era left behind
A reminder
That even I had loved
And lost

Revolution

The grains in the field
Are all burnt

And in the drought
The tears have dried
On sun burnt cheeks

The wasted bodies
And wasted dreams
Are rotting in graveyards

Sweat and grime
Are turning crimson
With anger

When the heart cannot
Stand fear anymore
Angst simmers

Revolution is erupting
From the parched mud

Blessed with Love

With every moment spent together
We are making our memories
Here and now
Slowly
Breathing life
Into an otherwise
Listless existence
We have together seen magic
Been a part of a miracle
And we will never disbelieve again
We know wonderland exists
For we have been
Blessed
With Love

Do you realize?
How wonderful your absence is
It makes every next meeting
More poignant
More passionate
After every meeting
I carry you with me
In a heartbeat
In a breath
In an yet undreamt dream
You rest as dew drops
Just below my eyelashes
And whenever the distances
Keeping you away
Start to become unbearable
Your molten self
Erupts
To plant kisses on my cheek
And slowly moves down my lips
To remind me of the feeling
Of your fingers caressing my face
As I sit alone contemplating
The crimson sunset
Our memories
Crowd around me
Catching the slanting rays of the sun
Dancing in a million rainbows
And I know
Somewhere
You are remembering me too

Dream

In the dream that I dreamt
For you and for me
The gorgeous moments of solitude
Did not wither
Under the harsh reality
Of everyday life
The touch
Did not turn stone cold
We sat lost in each other
And as you enveloped me
In your warmth
I found a reason
Beautiful enough
To make life seem worthwhile

The moment of truth

Today the moment of truth arrived
Without much fan fare
Finally the honesty I deserve.
I should be happy
Yet I know now that truth hurts
What hurts further is the delay
I wish you had mustered the courage
to say this long ago
I wish you had not made it so impersonal
Now that I KNOW
What shall I do?
Walking away seems difficult
Yet staying is not an option
It probably never was
In my heart I always knew it
It is just that I never realized
These words would seem like icy daggers
Lodging themselves in the cavities of my heart
Where the pain will stay
Long after this evening has been forgotten

Random thoughts

The secret stash of happiness
That every one says is within me
I am still seeking it
Yet, I do not doubt it exists
After all I have been afforded glimpses of it
At unexpected moments
At moments of solitude
Or in laughter shared with a group of friends
In contemplating my life
Or in gossiping about the mundane
During winter afternoon siestas
And the summer mornings
While savoring the melting chocolate on my tongue
Or in the tangy golgappas
During those walks hand in hand
And even mixed with the tears shed for love
It has crept up on me
Enveloped me in its warm glow
Added a dazzle to my smile
And a spring to my steps
Still searching for the key
To open the treasure chest
To behold and feel the jeweled joy
To make it my constant companion