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Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone, you may still exist, but you have ceased to live.


Mark Twain

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You are hammering away at my heart, with all your lies
will these little broken pieces
be all that I am left with as reminders of our love?

Death

Cyanide
Sarin
Valium
To each his own poison
When death seeps in
It doesn’t matter
How you embraced her
What matters is
Her kiss,
Which turns the lips deep blue
Your breathlessness
Excites her
Your pounding heart
Tells her of your love
Your pale cheeks
Will glow under her gaze
She is your beloved
You better go down on your knees

would you come by

If you could see
How our love slips through my fingers
Even as I try and hold it tight
Would you come by
To put your hands beneath mine
To stop it from trickling down
And being lost for ever

If I told you that I was forgetting
How your skin feels against mine
And your smell that wafted around me
Is becoming a fading memory
Would you come by
To embrace me once more
Letting me breathe the aroma of our love

If you saw me
Today
Roaming in the garden
Alone and lonely
Would you come by
Just to say hello?

Loved and Lost

Crimson red
Of virgin blood
Oozing out of a broken heart
The pain and the sighs
And the tears shed
I want to cherish them all
It was the first time
This special ache
Will rise yet again
As nostalgia
Somewhere in the future
Let me paint the memories till then
Onto a vivid canvass
And hide it
Away from the prying eyes
This mark of innocence lost
Of an era left behind
A reminder
That even I had loved
And lost

Revolution

The grains in the field
Are all burnt

And in the drought
The tears have dried
On sun burnt cheeks

The wasted bodies
And wasted dreams
Are rotting in graveyards

Sweat and grime
Are turning crimson
With anger

When the heart cannot
Stand fear anymore
Angst simmers

Revolution is erupting
From the parched mud

Blessed with Love

With every moment spent together
We are making our memories
Here and now
Slowly
Breathing life
Into an otherwise
Listless existence
We have together seen magic
Been a part of a miracle
And we will never disbelieve again
We know wonderland exists
For we have been
Blessed
With Love

Do you realize?
How wonderful your absence is
It makes every next meeting
More poignant
More passionate
After every meeting
I carry you with me
In a heartbeat
In a breath
In an yet undreamt dream
You rest as dew drops
Just below my eyelashes
And whenever the distances
Keeping you away
Start to become unbearable
Your molten self
Erupts
To plant kisses on my cheek
And slowly moves down my lips
To remind me of the feeling
Of your fingers caressing my face
As I sit alone contemplating
The crimson sunset
Our memories
Crowd around me
Catching the slanting rays of the sun
Dancing in a million rainbows
And I know
Somewhere
You are remembering me too

Dream

In the dream that I dreamt
For you and for me
The gorgeous moments of solitude
Did not wither
Under the harsh reality
Of everyday life
The touch
Did not turn stone cold
We sat lost in each other
And as you enveloped me
In your warmth
I found a reason
Beautiful enough
To make life seem worthwhile

The moment of truth

Today the moment of truth arrived
Without much fan fare
Finally the honesty I deserve.
I should be happy
Yet I know now that truth hurts
What hurts further is the delay
I wish you had mustered the courage
to say this long ago
I wish you had not made it so impersonal
Now that I KNOW
What shall I do?
Walking away seems difficult
Yet staying is not an option
It probably never was
In my heart I always knew it
It is just that I never realized
These words would seem like icy daggers
Lodging themselves in the cavities of my heart
Where the pain will stay
Long after this evening has been forgotten

Random thoughts

The secret stash of happiness
That every one says is within me
I am still seeking it
Yet, I do not doubt it exists
After all I have been afforded glimpses of it
At unexpected moments
At moments of solitude
Or in laughter shared with a group of friends
In contemplating my life
Or in gossiping about the mundane
During winter afternoon siestas
And the summer mornings
While savoring the melting chocolate on my tongue
Or in the tangy golgappas
During those walks hand in hand
And even mixed with the tears shed for love
It has crept up on me
Enveloped me in its warm glow
Added a dazzle to my smile
And a spring to my steps
Still searching for the key
To open the treasure chest
To behold and feel the jeweled joy
To make it my constant companion

I read these somewhere today and absolutely loved them

Sometimes we create walls
Not to keep people out
but to see
who cares enough
to knock them down

There is nothing more artistic than to truly love people." - Van Gogh

As I talk to you
I see how futile words can be
How devoid of all the feelings
All the pain
You could hear me speak all night
But not see the tears mixed with them
Not feel the pull of the heart strings
Not see the pain pumping through my heart
Not see the longing throbbing in my veins
Not smell the love permeating,
every parcel of air around me

Lovely little droplets
Limping onto my window panes
Laughing playfully
Lingering awhile
Loitering on the edges
Lounging in little mud pools
Lighting up the drab scene
Life giving droplets
Oh how much I love you

Raat aur sannata

Aasman me chaand kuch ungh sa raha tha
Tare kuch naaraj se idhar udhar chitke the
Raat kal kuch kam syaah thi
Hawa roj ki tarah gaa nahi rahi thi
Chat pe akele baithe
Maine kal dekha tha
Ek sannate ko aasmaan ko gherte hue
Dheere dheere raat ko apni baajuon mein jakadte hue
Sannate ki us aahat se chaand jag gaya tha
Tare ek doosre ko sehami nazron se dekhne lage the
Raat ke aanchal par silvate pad gayi thi
Chat par akele baithe
Maine kal dekha tha
Us darr ko jo raat ki aankhon mein sama gaya tha
Us ghabrahat ko jisne uske honth sil diye the
Us bechaini ko jisne hawa ka dam ghont diya tha
Hawa chaand taare aur aasman
Kuch na kar sake the
Aur sannata raat par daag chhod gaya tha

Do you still look back
And remember that time
That era when we were still strangers
The pain that binds me to you now
Seems to have been in existence
Since the beginning of time
Yet there was a time and place
Not long ago
When we were inhabitants of parallel universes
Almost unaware of each others existence

Here silences shriek
And the light casts dark shadows
Here time stands still
Memories rot and wither
Dreams fade
Desires burn
And hope shatters
Yet this place feels eerily familiar
An old acquaintance
As if from a past life
I have been here
I have walked these winding lanes
Leading to nowhere
I have smelled the now rotting flowers
I swam in the now dried stream
That was then
This is now
Once love blossomed with a promise of life
Now the wines of hatred cling and suffocate
Once open skies gave the dreams wings to fly
Now the menacing dark clouds weed out all hope
Once you and I were here together
Now… I am still here, alone.

Black hole

People have a way of blinking, and missing the moment
Moments that then come back to haunt them in time
The Ifs and buts enlarging to giddying proportions
The broken promises of those moments
The potential of the moments which withered before even taking root
Come back as a specter
Manifesting themselves in heinous forms
Feeding on newer moments of solitude
Tearing through the defenses of the time elapsed
The memories of the missed moments
Gushing in to the interstices of life
Until those interstices enlarge to become a void
A black hole