The moment of truth

Today the moment of truth arrived
Without much fan fare
Finally the honesty I deserve.
I should be happy
Yet I know now that truth hurts
What hurts further is the delay
I wish you had mustered the courage
to say this long ago
I wish you had not made it so impersonal
Now that I KNOW
What shall I do?
Walking away seems difficult
Yet staying is not an option
It probably never was
In my heart I always knew it
It is just that I never realized
These words would seem like icy daggers
Lodging themselves in the cavities of my heart
Where the pain will stay
Long after this evening has been forgotten

Random thoughts

The secret stash of happiness
That every one says is within me
I am still seeking it
Yet, I do not doubt it exists
After all I have been afforded glimpses of it
At unexpected moments
At moments of solitude
Or in laughter shared with a group of friends
In contemplating my life
Or in gossiping about the mundane
During winter afternoon siestas
And the summer mornings
While savoring the melting chocolate on my tongue
Or in the tangy golgappas
During those walks hand in hand
And even mixed with the tears shed for love
It has crept up on me
Enveloped me in its warm glow
Added a dazzle to my smile
And a spring to my steps
Still searching for the key
To open the treasure chest
To behold and feel the jeweled joy
To make it my constant companion

I read these somewhere today and absolutely loved them

Sometimes we create walls
Not to keep people out
but to see
who cares enough
to knock them down

There is nothing more artistic than to truly love people." - Van Gogh

As I talk to you
I see how futile words can be
How devoid of all the feelings
All the pain
You could hear me speak all night
But not see the tears mixed with them
Not feel the pull of the heart strings
Not see the pain pumping through my heart
Not see the longing throbbing in my veins
Not smell the love permeating,
every parcel of air around me

Lovely little droplets
Limping onto my window panes
Laughing playfully
Lingering awhile
Loitering on the edges
Lounging in little mud pools
Lighting up the drab scene
Life giving droplets
Oh how much I love you

Raat aur sannata

Aasman me chaand kuch ungh sa raha tha
Tare kuch naaraj se idhar udhar chitke the
Raat kal kuch kam syaah thi
Hawa roj ki tarah gaa nahi rahi thi
Chat pe akele baithe
Maine kal dekha tha
Ek sannate ko aasmaan ko gherte hue
Dheere dheere raat ko apni baajuon mein jakadte hue
Sannate ki us aahat se chaand jag gaya tha
Tare ek doosre ko sehami nazron se dekhne lage the
Raat ke aanchal par silvate pad gayi thi
Chat par akele baithe
Maine kal dekha tha
Us darr ko jo raat ki aankhon mein sama gaya tha
Us ghabrahat ko jisne uske honth sil diye the
Us bechaini ko jisne hawa ka dam ghont diya tha
Hawa chaand taare aur aasman
Kuch na kar sake the
Aur sannata raat par daag chhod gaya tha

Do you still look back
And remember that time
That era when we were still strangers
The pain that binds me to you now
Seems to have been in existence
Since the beginning of time
Yet there was a time and place
Not long ago
When we were inhabitants of parallel universes
Almost unaware of each others existence